Yikes! I have set myself some major goals this year and so far, well, it’s been a little slow – like my weekly posts here on JS – and my video project, although started in it’s form here at home has not seen the light of day YET! So what to do? Internal criticism won’t get the job done, nor will whinging about it to others…. the best advice is to just do it and then talk about it instead of telling everyone what I ‘plan’ to to….
And am I the only one with a ridiculous pile of things to do?? I have discovered that a perfect way of self sabotage is to fill my life with ‘things’ that take up my time…. mmmmm —when did this all start??? After a life changing event ten years ago, I seem to have been punishing myself for things that happened, denying myself true happiness and success, and now that I’m becoming aware, opening my eyes to the truth, I am still resisting the actual change itself that has come over (in thought at least)
Oh why must I be so loathe to take the steps?? And even as I write this I have determination, and even if it’s baby steps, slow progress on the road, I will not give us as there is nowhere else to go…. painted into a corner fate has forced my hand anyway….! Some days I wake up and feel the overwhelming leap right onto me before I have the chance to even greet the day! Routine, where are you??? Good thoughts where have you gone??
Okay, so today I will work on shifting stuff, both externally and internally, fit in some fun, music, cuddling pets and children and see if I can find this magical thing called ‘peace’ that I hear so much about…..
Have a wonderful day people!