Am I resisting change???

Yikes!  I have set myself some major goals this year and so far, well, it’s been a little slow – like my weekly posts here on JS – and my video project, although started in it’s form here at home has not seen the light of day YET!  So what to do?  Internal criticism won’t get the job done, nor will whinging about it to others…. the best advice is to just do it and then talk about it instead of telling everyone what I ‘plan’ to to….

And am I the only one with a ridiculous pile of things to do??  I have discovered that a perfect way of self sabotage is to fill my life with ‘things’ that take up my time…. mmmmm —when did this all start??? After a life changing event ten years ago, I seem to have been punishing myself for things that happened, denying myself true happiness and success, and now that I’m becoming aware, opening my eyes to the truth, I am still resisting the actual change itself that has come over (in thought at least)

Oh why must I be so loathe to take the steps??  And even as I write this I have determination, and even if it’s baby steps, slow progress on the road, I will not give us as there is nowhere else to go…. painted into a corner fate has forced my hand anyway….!  Some days I wake up and feel the overwhelming leap right onto me before I have the chance to even greet the day!  Routine, where are you???  Good thoughts where have you gone??

Okay, so today I will work on shifting stuff, both externally and internally, fit in some fun, music, cuddling pets and children and see if I can find this magical thing called ‘peace’ that I hear so much about…..

Have a wonderful day people!

Melinda

VP 52

Okay, so here I am, it’s now the second week of the year and no song posted – am I allowed to be flexible and creative in my blogging resolution??? Yes Melinda you are….. (it’s ‘be kind to me’ year)

So I pulled out the big folder of all my original stuff and managed to find 49 complete songs (well almost) and these are the ones I will post this year….. There are some oldies and new ones, some that that hardly been heard and many that need re-writes…. and many that won’t appear on my album!  However I’m looking to do this project for me and for you, the listener… I am honoring the songwriter within and I will bear my musical soul to you and to myself, one song at a time!  So we begin, hope you stick around for some interesting stuff to be posted along the way!!!!

First song coming soon

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Here goes!  It’s 2014 and I have just returned from my very first volunteer role @ Woodford Folk Festival — I am changed for good!  I have neglected my own music, berated myself, helped others without helping myself, tolerated behaviors not aligned to my own, allowed others to take advantage of me and been way to hard on myself.  I had a fair amount of disappointments in 2013, all of which taught me many things – however to make changes in life one must DO SOMETHING!!!  So, my new year’s resolution for my own musical career is to post a song each week up here on my Journey Songs blog, not old versions done years ago but brand new recordings of every song I have written, songs that are lonely and neglected and deserve to be shared….!  So we begin (once I catch up on sleep from 7 days in Woodford Heaven)….. I hope you join me!